Death, Rebirth and the Space In Between
A question that has been sitting with me recently is:
Who am I without all of this?
Without the roles.
Without the labels.
Without the identities I have spent years building.
Without the things I have attached meaning to.
It's not an easy question to sit with. Over the past few years, I've spoken openly about leaving a corporate career of 25 years and following a deep inner knowing that there was another path waiting for me. At the time, it didn't make logical sense. There was no roadmap, no certainty, just an intuitive pull that became impossible to ignore. That decision ultimately led to the creation of Sandhāna.
It led me deeper into the work that I love and into the privilege of walking alongside so many of you through your own seasons of growth, healing and transformation. For a long time, I thought I had found the thing.
The thing I was here to do.
The thing that would define the next chapter of my life.
And perhaps I had. But what I've come to realise is that life continues to ask us to evolve. What feels true at one stage of our journey may not be the whole truth forever.
We change.
We grow.
We have new experiences.
We fall in love.
We experience loss.
We learn things about ourselves that we couldn't have known before.
And if we are truly listening, what we create and offer to the world must continue to evolve alongside us.
Recently I've found myself in another season of questioning. Not because anything is wrong. Not because I don't trust the path. But because I can feel another layer of truth emerging. One that requires me to pause long enough to hear it. To resist the temptation to immediately fill the space with another plan, another offering, another direction.
To simply sit with the question:
What feels true now?
If I'm honest, this space has brought with it more than a few 4am wake ups. The kind where the mind desperately wants certainty. The kind where old identities begin to loosen their grip. The kind where you realise just how much of your sense of self has become wrapped up in what you do, what you create and how others see you.
I've come to think of these moments as little ego deaths. Not because something is ending, but because something is being asked to transform. The old version of ourselves can only take us so far. Eventually life asks us to loosen our grip and trust what is trying to emerge.
This became the heart of a recent conversation I had with my partner Diego and Lloyd on their podcast What No One Told Us. Together we explored identity, intuition, purpose, relationships, death and rebirth, and the courage it takes to keep following our inner knowing, even when it leads us away from something we once believed was our destination.
One of the things I shared in the conversation is that perhaps purpose is not something we find once and hold onto forever. Perhaps purpose is a living relationship. Something that continues to reveal itself as we do. A conversation between who we have been and who we are becoming.
If you've ever found yourself questioning what comes next, or feeling the pull to let go of an identity that no longer feels fully aligned, I think you'll find something that resonates in this conversation.
🎙️ Season 2 Episode 6: Who Am I Without All of This?
As always, thank you for being here. Thank you for walking alongside me and being part of this creation. I’m excited to discover what is next as it slowly reveals itself. But for now I’m embracing the season of winter like never before and going within has never felt so peaceful. None of us are the same person we were a year ago. Or even a month ago. And I believe that is exactly as it should be.
With love,
Donna Xx